I thought Nelson would appreciate this as much as I did. 

The Rambler

"Hello?"
"Heeelllloooo?"
"Oh hi, umm, (shuffle shuffle) hi."
"Hi"
"Is this the Nelson's home I am looking for Courtney...  Courtney Nelson, is she there?"
"I am sorry. Umm. I think you have the wrong number."
"Oh right, ya, that makes sense. Ya, why would she actually give me the real number. I mean on the attractive scale she is a 12 and I am barely a 5 there is no way she would actually give it too me.  Maybe I should have asked her a different way. Like I don't know not at school, or in front of her friends. The whole sweating thing did not help either. Gosh what is wrong with me. I try and try and nothing ever works out. I bet its karma from that one time I cheated on my math test yep, it has to be............ Umm. Are you still there?"
"Yes."
"Wow, this is embarrassing... sorry you had to hear that. I ramble."
"Its fine."
"Wait is this 801-554-7896?"
"No, this is 801-554-7869."
"Oh."
"Ya"
"Well again sorry about that, uh, thanks. bye"
"Bye?"

I really don't know what this is supposed to mean but, maybe a great start to a story. 

So this is the news paper article that I used for the assignment but when I read it, it was just too funny not to share. Also really sad....

Sunburns

I love sun burns.
I love the way my face tingles and is always warm.
It reminds me of the hard work I did that day...
Or the not so hard work of either laying out or enjoying the water.
It also makes my skin glow.  I don't have to put on any make up to feel pretty
To feel good.
Or that I am not able to impress.
The vitamin D helps me when ever I am sad
If I walk outside and it's a bright day I am put in a definite better mood.
Sunburns might be painful but to my the pain feels good.
This worries me for the future cause I want good skin so.... I limit my self.
Or at least try.
oh and the fake baking crap does not count
100% natural 100% of the time
(I honestly could care less about the color of my skin I just love the feeling)
wow... Jumbled thoughts but that is why I love sunburns.

Favorite Movie

Raising Helen

I have recently watched this movie and it instantly became my favorite.  From the showing of grief and heart ache to making you want to laugh so hard you cry.  I overall is just a great coming of age movie and in the end helps you see the process of forgiveness and love.  Although this is my first choice at this time I have a definite top five.
1. Raising Helen
2. Baby mama
3. Hunger Games
4. Harry Potte (whole series)
5. Lord Of The Rings

Scream

Scream.... Just do it. I promise it always makes you feel better.

Bro, Brother, Brethren?

Tick-Tock


                  Tick-Tock.

What makes you tick.  What makes you happy mad and confused all at the same time. For me, I know.

                                                          FAMILY.

My brothers know when to tease me.  When to cheer me up because I just failed my math test.  Or to just let me know that they are here for me.  They push me to the point where my buttons are jammed and I go into error mode.  Out of all these moments of yelling and name calling there comes that one moment.  The one that honestly happens twice a year.  My brother says, "I Love you sis."  I can remember every single time those words have been said sincerely.  So when I think about jamming and breaking my internal clock I think of the brothers that make me tick for better or worse.

Phenomenally Phenomenal Women

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies.
I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size
But when I start to tell them,
They think I'm telling lies.
I say,
It's in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips,
The stride of my step,
The curl of my lips.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

I walk into a room
Just as cool as you please,
And to a man,
The fellows stand or
Fall down on their knees.
Then they swarm around me,
A hive of honey bees.
I say,
It's the fire in my eyes,
And the flash of my teeth,
The swing in my waist,
And the joy in my feet.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Men themselves have wondered
What they see in me.
They try so much
But they can't touch
My inner mystery.
When I try to show them
They say they still can't see.
I say,
It's in the arch of my back,
The sun of my smile,
The ride of my breasts,
The grace of my style.
I'm a woman

Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Now you understand
Just why my head's not bowed.
I don't shout or jump about
Or have to talk real loud.
When you see me passing
It ought to make you proud.
I say,
It's in the click of my heels,
The bend of my hair,
the palm of my hand,
The need of my care,
'Cause I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me. 

- I hate how I feel like I cannot create this. The words move.  They make you reflect and think about your life. AAAAAHHHHH why can't I just be creative!!!!!!! Jealousy, jealousy......

-> Favorite Poem<-

There are many things that I can say about this picture but the main statement that sums it up is.... 

 Only two defining forces have ever offered to die for you: 

1. Jesus Christ

2.The American G.I. 

One died for your soul, the other for your freedom. 

Lets remember the ones that died for us every day not just on special occasions. 

SLEEP

Before I go to sleep at night I think.  I think about the many things that I did through out the day and if I actually did anything important.  This way of starting my sleep cycle always makes me have the craziest dreams.  That go along the lines of me never being able to accomplish a simple task. It is honestly the most frustrating thing.
I also cannot go to bed unless my room is clean. It's a weird mental thing that through the years has just grown on me.  Even if it is 2:00am I will clean my room and hang up my clothes (in color order) and then I can sleep soundly.

for me sleep is a reward that I give myself after I accomplish everything that needed to be done that day.

Design.

I just changed my layout. Can you read it or no. Please comment and give me feed back :) Thanks.

What my bones said....

Run.
          Run.
                     Run.
My bones inside me say push.  All the other organs veins and subjects around my bones listen.  My bones are there to encourage the rest of myself to push on. All my body wants is to be healthy.  To be strong.

Who would want to weak?

My bones now are strong and have never been broken. 

They want to stay that way.

When I am old and grey I want to think back and think that I did everything possible to keep my bones strong; mentally and physically. There are going to be people that die (including me) but, I want my death to be more like rest; welcoming and inviting.  Not resisting against my ultimate fate that I knew would come. My bones tell me to stay strong so we can be strong.  And on that day of becoming free. 

We will go together. 

Cooking.

Today I experimented with cooking.  Basically took everything from my fridge and made a delicious concoction.  I felt like a scientist creating a new substance... weird.  I loved it.  I think dancing around the kitchen creating new recipes while listening to pandora will become my favorite pass time.  g2g to the grocery store to pick up basil. BYE.

Life and Death.

Life is made up of years that mean nothing and moments that mean it all.

You're born, you die, and in between you make a lot of mistakes.
....That awkward moment between life and death.... 

Take chances. Tell the truth. Date someone totally wrong for you. Say no. Spend all your cash! Fall in love. Get to know someone random. Be random. Say I love you. Sing out loud. Laugh at a stupid joke. Cry. Get revenge. Apologize. Tell someone how much they mean to you. Tell the jerk what you feel. Let someone know what they're missing. Laugh til your stomach hurts. LIVE LIFE!

If you can't solve it, it isn't a problem - it's reality. And sometimes reality is the hardest thing to understand and the thing that takes the longest to realize. But once it hits you in the face you'll never forget it. It will always be there in your memories and sometimes that is the best way to look at it.

Live with intention. Walk to the edge. Listen hard. Practice wellness. Play with abandon. Laugh. Choose with no regret. Continue to learn. Appreciate you friends. Do what you love. Live as if this is all there is.

Rock bottom is good solid ground, and a dead end street is just a place to turn around.

I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned the hard way that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, or end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's to happen next.

Beauty?

This amazes me.  I should never feel bad about how I look cause honestly these women that we compare ourselves to look just like us. 

FEARS

I am afraid of grapefruit.  Every morning I wake and face my fear.  What if the citrusy juice squirts in my eye and I go blind; then having to wear an ugly red puffy eye all day.  I am worried that the first bite will be bitter and leave the nastiest taste, leaving me with the worst start to maybe the greatest day of my life.  

I am afraid of forgiveness.  Having that feeling of letting yourself be vulnerable and letting that person into your life again.  Shouldn't it be easy to forgive? Shouldn't we want to.  And the worst part of it all is death the greatest fear brings us to forgive.  Can a fear lead us to conquer another fear?  Courage is honestly the major part of forgiveness; which brings me to the fear of do I have courage?

I am afraid of Crescent Roll containers.  The trick of hitting them against the table until that expected/ un-expected.................POP!  Nothing will every prepare me for the monthly opening of the crescent rolls for dinner.  I mean honestly it is like jack-in-the-box dinner style.  Not cool.

I am afraid of fear.  Can that be possible?

New Favorite Song...

I'm thinking about you.

I'm thinking about you like dwight thinks about jello, 

how Johnny thinks about June 

or like lemonade thinks about picnics.  

I'm thinking about you like bert thinks about ernie, 

how neon thinks about black lights

or needles think about thread.

 I'm thinking about you like bread thinks about honey,

 how Jay-z thinks about Beyonce

or moose thinks about muffins. 

I'm thinking about you like smokers think about quitting,

how Tim thinks about Faith

or soup thinks about crackers.
I'm thinking about you like spring thinks about lady bugs,
how Bonnie thinks about Clyde
or cereal thinks about milk.
I am thinking about you because I want to 

But honestly cant stop.

Love is.

Love is the song that comes on the radio and you smile because you think of them....

Love is a droplet.  It signifies the best moments that over come you but also the lowest times when you have cried.  It shows the storms raging in but also being fearless dancing in the rain.

Love is an onion.  Makes you cry but gives the best flavor

Love is butter.  Makes everything better...

Love is your favorite song.  You listen to it when your sad.  You listen to it when your happy.  You go to it for comfort but also as a release.  The melody has a sweet spot in your heart and in the end you wonder how you ever lived without the sweet tune.

Love is hard.

Love is messy.

Love relates to everything.

Here are all of the books in the series.  All amazing but the first is always going to be my favorite.

"The Summer I Turned Pretty" 

This book was an amazing find.  I was just grazing through the library one day and thought it looked good.  Since then it has become one of my most favorite books. If I could live inside this amazing book, I would.  I would inhale the ocean air and soak up the sun, and I would hang out all day with the kind-wonderful-funny-awkward Belly and her two known-em-forever buds; Jeremiah and Conrad.  If you want to have a perfect summer read-this is the book!  It has the typical love triangle but the main focus is how hard growing up is, and the view is one that everyone could relate to.  If you picture your self laying on the beach enjoying the warm sun while reading a good book;  this is the novel you should imagine yourself reading.

I want to start a series of reviews for books, movies and TV shows that have interested me.  Along the way they will relate to the main meaning of my blog.  I love to read so be prepared for a lot of books...

Introduction

color, sound and letters seem to make up what ever I love most.  The color of a pine forest, the sound of rain on my roof, the invigorating words of a wise person.   All things tend to show my love of life. This blog is to showcase my many finds of the things I love and how everyday beauty can be turned into something much much more.